due to a major bureaucratic fuckup, my position in the carpentry program at the college has been given to someone else and i can't get it back. so i'm not going to learn to be a carpenter this year. i'm upset about it, but also relieved, because carpentry is not my #1 chosen profession. still, i am upset, because this destroys all my plans. the next couple of years in my life were planned out (a first in my life, unless you count grade school and high school as a "plan"), and now it's all been unheaved and i don't have any idea what i'm going to do.

i have no skills. no experience. no plans. my car is about to die. i'm broke and jobless. and i'm pretty sure i hate idaho.

god, it sounds like i'm depressed or something. and i might be. mostly scared and unsure. i want to sleep my days away. sleep is so nice. dreams dreams dreams.

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